Trust!

Hey guys I’m back again. In my very first blog I introduced myself to you and I explained to you what I want my bliogs to be about- Mistakes. Honestly, if I had to write down all my mistakes I’d probably be on my millionth page by now. However, I wanted to tell you guys about one of my biggest mistakes- Losing the trust of the people I love.

Guys, trust is like a building, it takes FOREVER to build, but it only takes one aeroplane crash, one tsunami, one earthquake, one dramatic baby who hasn’t been fed in a hour to bring the whole thing down. Its the same with humans, you build up your trust everyday with the good deeds you do like being honest with the people around you, always doing the right thing, listening and obeying your parents, doing things that woud give them reason to trust you. I mean they aren’t going to trust you if the second they close their eyes you’re having a huge party and getting drunk with tequila, right! Or, if the second their not looking you’re stealing a tenner out of their bags. NO, absoulutely not, in fact they would trust you so little they would either pop you in a cellar or put one of those video microchips on you to see what your up to every second of the day.

When I was younger, I was trustworthy, I was honest, kind (well I am still kind), loving and obiedient. I was the kind of kid that all the mothers wanted. I was my parents star child. They loved me. I was always doing the right thing, saying the right thing and nobody would ever think twice about what I say. If I said I didn’t do something, I didn’t and nobody ever gave me a second glance.

Then one day, I stole, I think it was 2 euro from my mums wallet. I know it doesn’t sound like much,but trust me it was. It was the first time I had ever stolen and it was because my mum wouldn’t give me money to buy something from the bookfair. Then to top it all off I lied about it. I mean, come on how many sins can you commit at once. In my case I have a horrible talent at doing like 20 at one time. Honestly, I was horrified at myself, but I wanted what I wanted. Unfortunately however, it got worse because obviously I got caught. First of all it was my first time really doing anything wrong and I disn’t really put much thought into it. I thought it would be okay to hide it in my bag where my mum puts my lunch and whatever homework I had in it EVERY morning. (You could tell I was new to this). My mum found the money and gave me HELL about it and I mean HELL. She took away everything off me, I couldn’t be grounded because I wasn’t allowed to go out anyway, but she still found ways to make the next few days miserable. She took my tablet, my “phone”, my books anything that made me happy . She literally took away all my happiness.

In the end, she did forgive me eventually, but she could never really trust what I’d say for a while afterwards. If I said I didn’t do something, she would say “Are you sure”, or “Liars go to hell”. Yeah I know crazy right, one mistake completely changed the way she looked at me. But we built up the trust again, then I broke it again because of social media when I was about 13 and since then we haven’t really just been getting along at all. I want to fix my relationship with my mum but she doesn’t trust me and to be honest I don’t really trust her. She broke that trust just as much as I did because when I needed her, she wasn’t there for me or she wouldn’t listen and thats really the worst thing for a teen in todays world, for their mother not to be there for them or to feel like they don’t love them, to not be able to trust your own mum. Wow, I mean its crazy isn’t it. A relationship that started out beautifully is pretty much in ruins now. Guys don’t lose your parents over silly stuff, respect each other, love each other and above all always be there for each other.

In the end trust works both ways, you’ve got to trust others for them to trust you but you have to earn that trust. Be TRUSTWORTHY guys, its an important trait in every relationship. There is no point in having friends you don’t trust. They cannot be your friends. The second you turn away, they will stab you in the back. Take it from someone who knows.

I know this has been extrememly long and a big congrats if you made it this far. I’m just going to end with this-“Saying I trust you to someone is better than saying I love you because you may not always trust the person you love but you can always love the person you trust”. So guys, thats it for today, I’ve gone through all this so you don’t have to. So guys Trust your friends, your fam, trust yourself! Embrace life, THE FUTURE IS NOW!